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Craig Ferguson

I could be doing something more productive with my life. But “It’s going to be alright.”

To which the reply was simply, drink until you can’t feel the pain anymore. It’s not a cure, it simply masks it.

The wind gently swept over my body as I stood in silence gazing at her face, trying so hard to decipher what she may say before she said it. My mind raced. My fists clenched in misplaced rage, and confusion. Her lips inched open. My fists unclenched, and I moved a half a step towards her before being stopped by her wall of words. syllable after syllable, word after word, line after line my ears were barraged. I slowly stepped back. Soon the words began to fade and become white noise as I continued to gaze at her. My heart began to slow, as I tried to find the right words to use in countermeasure to her verbal assault, but no words found their way to my dry lips. 

She finished, and moved towards me extending her arms for what should have been a warm embrace. Arms wrapped around me, I asked her why she was doing so, to which she replied in a quiet tone, “Because you need this more than I do.” 

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Holy fuck! GPOY

I never thought I would ever say things like what I’ve said tonight. I fucked up. And I’m still not sure if I have been played by this girl, or if I just am over analyzing the whole situation. I really don’t have any idea what the fuck to do right now. FUCK!

OH SHIT! OH SHIT THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!

Probably was.

For the love of all that is good and holy why do I even bother opening my fucking mouth. Think Nick! Just…shut up and think for once in your damn life. I really could use a cigarette right now. 

I haven’t been on here in what seems like forever. I have been incredibly busy with work and school, and when I say that I truly mean it. I have never been so busy in my life. I’m kind of going through this weird flux where I am balancing school and work, and I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew. Why am I up so early? Now I am just spotting the different thoughts that are running through my head! COFFEE! There is COFFEE in the kitchen! I think I am going to go drink some COFFEE!